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  The space where most people would have put a full-size kitchen set had the thirty-gallon aquarium against the wall, a stereo catty-corner from it.

  Heavy white drapes hid the windows and turned the golden sunlight to a pale twilight. When you sleep during the day, you have to have good curtains.

  I flung my coat on the couch, kicked my dress shoes off, and just enjoyed the feeling of my bare feet on the carpet. The panty hose came off next, to lie wrinkled and forlorn by the shoes. Barefoot, I padded over to the fish tank.

  The angelfish rose to the surface begging for food. The fish are all wider than my outspread hand. They are the biggest angels I've ever seen outside of the pet store I bought them from. The store had breeding angelfish that were nearly a foot long.

  I stripped off the shoulder holster and put the Browning in its second home, a specially made holster in the headboard of my bed. If any bad guys snuck up on me, I could pull it out and shoot them. That was the idea, anyway. So far it had worked.

  When the dry-clean-only suit and blouse were hung neatly in the closet, I flopped down on the bed in my bra and undies, still wearing the silver cross that I wore even in the shower. Never know when a pesky vampire is going to try to take a bite out of you. Always prepared, that was my motto, or was that the Boy Scouts? I shrugged and dialed work. Mary, our daytime secretary, answered on the second ring. "Animators, Incorporated. How may we serve you?"

  "Hi, Mary, it's Anita."

  "Hi, what's up?"

  "I need to talk with Bert."

  "He's with a prospective client right now. May I ask what this is pertaining to?"

  "Him rescheduling my appointments for tonight."

  "Ooh, boy. I'll let you tell him. If he yells at someone, it should be you." She was only half-kidding.

  "Fine," I said.

  She lowered her voice and whispered, "Client is on her way to the front door. He'll be with you in a jiffy."

  "Thanks, Mary."

  She put me on hold before I could tell her not to. Muzak seeped out of the phone. It was a butchered version of the Beatles' "Tomorrow." I'd have rather listened to static. Mercifully, Bert came on the line and saved me.

  "Anita, what time can you come in today?"

  "I can't."

  "Can't what?"

  "Can't come in today."

  "At all?" His voice had risen an octave.

  "You got it."

  "Why the hell not?" Cursing at me already, a bad sign.

  "I got beeped by the police after my morning meeting. I haven't even been to bed yet."

  "You can sleep in, don't worry about meeting new clients in the afternoon. Just come in for your appointments tonight."

  He was being generous, understanding. Something was wrong.

  "I can't make the appointments tonight, either."

  "Anita, we're overbooked here. You have five clients tonight. Five!"

  "Divide them up among the other animators," I said.

  "Everybody is already maxed."

  "Listen, Bert, you're the one who said yes to the police. You're the one who put me on retainer to them. You thought it would be great publicity."

  "It has been great publicity," he said.

  "Yeah, but it's like working two full-time jobs sometimes. I can't do both."

  "Then drop the retainer. I had no idea it'd take up this much of your time."

  "It's a murder investigation, Bert. I can't drop it."

  "Let the police do their own dirty work," he said.

  He was a fine one to talk about that. Him with his squeaky-clean fingernails and nice safe office. "They need my expertise and my contacts. Most of the monsters won't talk to the police."

  He was quiet on the other end of the phone. His breathing came harsh and angry. "You can't do this to me. We've taken money, signed contracts."

  "I asked you to hire extra help months ago."

  "I hired John Burke. He's been handling some of your vampire slayings, as well as raising the dead."

  "Yeah, John's a big help, but we need more. In fact, I bet he could take at least one of my zombies tonight."

  "Raise five in one night?"

  "I'm doing it," I said.

  "Yes, but John isn't you."

  That was almost a compliment. "You have two choices, Bert; either reschedule or delegate them to someone else."

  "I am your boss. I could just say come in tonight or you're fired." His voice was firm and matter-of-fact.

  I was tired and cold sitting on the bed in my bra and undies. I didn't have time for this. "Fire me."

  "You don't mean that," he said.

  "Look, Bert, I've been on my feet for over twenty hours. If I don't get some sleep soon, I'm not going to be able to work for anybody."

  He was silent for a long time, his breathing soft and regular in my ear. Finally, he said, "Alright, you're free for tonight. But you damn well better be back on the job tomorrow."

  "I can't promise that, Bert."

  "Dammit, Anita, do you want to be fired?"

  "This is the best year we've ever had, Bert. Part of that's due to the articles on me in the Post-Dispatch."

  "They were about zombie rights and that government study you're on. You didn't do them to help promote our business."

  "But it worked, didn't it? How many people call up and ask specifically for me? How many people say they've seen me in the paper? How many heard me on the radio? I may be promoting zombie rights, but it's damn good for business. So cut me some slack."

  "You don't think I'd do it, do you?" His voice snarled through the phone. He was pissed.

  "No, I don't," I said.

  His breath was short and harsh. "You damn well better show up tomorrow night, or I'm going to call your bluff." He slammed the receiver in my ear. Childish.

  I hung up the phone and stared at it. The Resurrection Company in California had made me a handsome offer a few months back. But I really didn't want to move to the west coast, or the east coast for that matter. I liked St. Louis. But Bert was going to have to break down and hire more help. I couldn't keep this schedule up. Sure, it'd get better after October, but I just seemed to be going from one emergency to another for this entire year.

  I had been stabbed, beaten, shot, strangled, and vampire-bit in the space of four months. There comes a point where you just have too many things happening too close together. I had battle fatigue.

  I left a message on my judo instructor's machine. I went twice a week at four o'clock, but I wasn't going to make it today. Three hours of sleep just wouldn't have been enough.

  I dialed the number for Guilty Pleasures. It was a vampire strip joint. Chippendale's with fangs. Jean-Claude owned and managed it. Jean-Claude's voice came over the line, soft as silk, caressing down my spine even though I knew it was a recording. "You have reached Guilty Pleasures. I would love to make your darkest fantasy come true. Leave a message, and I will get back to you."

  I waited for the beep. "Jean-Claude, this is Anita Blake. I need to see you tonight. It's important. Call me back with a time and place." I gave him my home number, then hesitated, listening to the tape scratch. "Thanks." I hung up, and that was that.

  He'd either call back or he wouldn't. He probably would. The question was, did I want him to? No. No, I didn't, but for the police, for all those poor people who would die, I had to try. But for me personally, going to the Master was not a good idea.

  Jean-Claude had marked me twice already. Two more marks and I would be his human servant. Did I mention that neither mark was voluntary? His servant for eternity. Didn't sound like a good idea to me. He seemed to lust after my body, too, but that was secondary. I could have handled it if all he wanted was physical, but he was after my soul. That he could not have.

  I had managed to avoid him for the last two months. Now I was willingly putting myself within reach again. Stupid. But I remembered the nameless man's hair, soft and mingling with the still-green lawn. The fang marks, the paper-white skin, the fragility of
his nude body covered with dew. There would be more bodies to look at, unless we were quick. And quick meant Jean-Claude.

  Visions of vampire victims danced in my head. And every one of them was partially my fault, because I was too chickenshit to go see the Master. If I could stop the killings now, with just one dead, I'd risk my soul daily. Guilt is a wonderful motivator.

  4

  I WAS SWIMMING IN black water, strong smooth strokes. The moon hung huge and shining, making a silver pathway on the lake. There was a black fringe of trees. I was almost to shore. The water was so warm, warm as blood. In that moment I knew why the waters were black. It was blood. I was swimming in a lake of fresh, warm blood.

  I woke instantly, gasping for breath. Eyes searching the darkness for . . . what? Something that had caressed my leg just before I woke. Something that lived in blood and darkness.

  The phone shrilled, and I had to swallow a scream. I wasn't usually this nervous. It was just a nightmare, dammit. Just a dream.

  I fumbled for the receiver and managed, "Yeah."

  "Anita?" The voice sounded hesitant, as if its owner might hang up.

  "Who is this?"

  "It's Willie, Willie McCoy." Even as he said the name, the rhythm of the voice sounded familiar. The phone made it distant and charged with an electric hiss, but I recognized it.

  "Willie, how are you?" The minute I said it, I wished I hadn't. Willie was a vampire now; how okay could a dead man be?

  "I'm doing real well." His voice had a happy lilt to it. He was pleased that I asked.

  I sighed. Truth was, I liked Willie. I wasn't supposed to like vampires. Any vampire, not even if I'd known him when he was alive.

  "How ya doing yourself?"

  "Okay, what's up?"

  "Jean-Claude got your message. He says ta meet him at the Circus of the Damned at eight o'clock tonight."

  "The Circus? What's he doing over there?"

  "He owns it now. Ya didn't know?"

  I shook my head, realized he couldn't see it, and said, "No, I didn't."

  "He says to meet 'im in a show that starts at eight."

  "Which show?"

  "He said you'd know which one."

  "Well, isn't that cryptic," I said.

  "Hey, Anita, I just do what I'm told. Ya know how it is."

  I did know. Jean-Claude owned Willie lock, stock, and soul. "It's okay, Willie, it's not your fault."

  "Thanks, Anita." His voice sounded cheerful, like a puppy who expected a kick and got patted instead.

  Why had I comforted him? Why did I care whether a vampire got its feelings hurt, or not? Answer: I didn't think of him as a dead man. He was still Willie McCoy with his penchant for loud primary-colored suits, clashing ties, and small, nervous hands. Being dead hadn't changed him that much. I wished it had.

  "Tell Jean-Claude I'll be there."

  "I will." He was quiet for a minute, his breath soft over the phone. "Watch your back tonight, Anita."

  "Do you know something I should know?"

  "No, but . . . I don't know."

  "What's up, Willie?"

  "Nuthin', nuthin'." His voice was high and frightened.

  "Am I walking into a trap, Willie?"

  "No, no, nuthin' like that." I could almost see his small hands waving in the air. "I swear, Anita, nobody's gunnin' for you."

  I let that go. Nobody he knew of was all he could swear to. "Then what are you afraid of, Willie?"

  "It's just that there's more vampires around here than usual. Some of 'em ain't too careful who they hurt. That's all."

  "Why are there more vampires, Willie? Where did they come from?"

  "I don't know and I don't want to know, ya know? I got ta go, Anita." He hung up before I could ask anything else. There had been real fear in his voice. Fear for me, or for himself? Maybe both.

  I glanced at the radio clock on my bedstand: 6:35. I had to hurry if I was going to make the appointment. The covers were toasty warm over my legs. All I really wanted to do was cuddle back under the blankets, maybe with a certain stuffed toy penguin I knew. Yeah, hiding sounded good.

  I threw back the covers and walked into the bathroom. I hit the light switch, and glowing white light filled the small room. My hair stuck up in all directions, a mass of tight black curls. That'd teach me not to sleep on it wet. I ran a brush through the curls and they loosened slightly, turning into a frothing mass of waves. The curls went all over the place and there wasn't a damn thing I could do with it except wash it and start over. There wasn't time for that.

  The black hair made my pale skin look deathly, or maybe it was the overhead lighting. My eyes were so dark brown they looked black. Two glittering holes in the pastiness of my face. I looked like I felt; great.

  What do you wear to meet the Master of the City? I chose black jeans, a black sweater with bright geometric designs, black Nikes with blue swooshes, and a blue-and-black sport bag clipped around my waist. Color coordination at its best.

  The Browning went into its shoulder holster. I put an extra ammo clip in the sport bag along with credit cards, driver's license, money, and a small hairbrush. I slipped on the short leather jacket I'd bought last year. It was the first one I'd ever tried on that didn't make me look like a gorilla. Most leather jackets were so long-sleeved, I could never wear them. The jacket was black, so Bert wouldn't let me wear it to work.

  I only zipped the jacket halfway up, leaving room so I could go for my gun if I needed to. The silver cross swung on its long chain, a warm, solid weight between my breasts. The cross would be more help against vampires than the gun, even with silver-coated bullets.

  I hesitated at the door. I hadn't seen Jean-Claude in months. I didn't want to see him now. My dream came back to me. Something that lived in blood and darkness. Why the nightmare? Was it Jean-Claude interfering in my dreams again? He had promised to stay out of my dreams. But was his word worth anything? No answer to that.

  I flicked off the apartment lights and closed the door behind me. I rattled it to make sure it was locked, and I had nothing left to do but drive to the Circus of the Damned. No more excuses. No more delays. My stomach was so tight it hurt. So I was afraid; so what? I had to go, and the sooner I left, the sooner I could come home. If only I believed that Jean-Claude would make things that simple. Nothing was ever simple where he was concerned. If I learned anything about the murders tonight, I'd pay for it, but not in money. Jean-Claude seemed to have plenty of that. No, his coin was more painful, more intimate, more bloody.

  And I had volunteered to go see him. Stupid, Anita, very stupid.

  5

  THERE WAS A BOUQUET of spotlights on the top of the Circus of the Damned. The lights slashed the black night like swords. The multicolored lights that spelled the name seemed dimmer with the huge white lights whirling overhead. Demonic clowns danced around the sign in frozen pantomime.

  I walked past the huge cloth signs that covered the walls. One picture showed a man that had no skin: See the Skinless Man. A movie version of a voodoo ceremony covered another banner. Zombies writhed from open graves. The zombie banner had changed since last I'd visited the Circus. I didn't know if that was good or bad; probably neither. I didn't give a damn what they did here, except . . . Except it wasn't right to raise the dead just for entertainment.

  Who did they have raising zombies for them? I knew it had to be someone new because I had helped kill their last animator. He had been a serial killer and had nearly killed me twice, the second time by ghoul attack, which was a messy way to die. Of course, the way he died had been messy, too, but I wasn't the one who ripped him open. A vampire had done that. You might say I eased him on his way. A mercy killing. Ri-ight.

  It was too cold to be standing outside with my jacket half-unzipped. But if I zipped it all the way, I'd never get to my gun in time. Freeze my butt off, or be able to defend myself. The clowns on the roof had fangs. I decided it wasn't that cold after all.

  Heat and noise poured out to meet me at t
he door. Hundreds of bodies pressed together in an enclosed space. The noise of the crowd was like the ocean, murmurous and large, sound without meaning. A crowd is an elemental thing. A word, a glance, and a crowd becomes a mob. A different being entirely from a group.

  There were a lot of families. Mom, Dad, the kiddies. The children had balloons tied to their wrists and cotton candy smeared on their faces and hands. It smelled like a traveling carnival: corn dogs, the cinnamon smell of funnel cakes, snow cones, sweat. The only thing missing was the dust. There was always dust in the air at a summer fair. Dry, choking dust kicked into the air by hundreds of feet. Cars driving over the grass until it is grey-coated with dust.

  There was no smell of dirt in the air, but there was something else just as singular. The smell of blood. So faint you'd almost think you dreamed it, but it was there. The sweet copper scent of blood mingled with the smells of cooking food and the sharp smell of a snow cone being made. Who needed dust?

  I was hungry, and the corn dogs smelled good. Should I eat first or accuse the Master of the City of murder? Choices, choices.

  I didn't get to decide. A man stepped out of the crowd. He was only a little taller than me, with curly blond hair that fell past his shoulders. He was wearing a cornflower-blue shirt with the sleeves rolled up, showing firm, muscular forearms. Jeans no tighter than the skin on a grape showed slender hips. He wore black cowboy boots with blue designs tooled into them. His true-blue eyes matched his shirt.

  He smiled, flashing small white teeth. "You're Anita Blake, right?"

  I didn't know what to say. It isn't always a good idea to admit who you are.

  "Jean-Claude told me to wait for you." His voice was soft, hesitant. There was something about him, an almost childlike appeal. Besides I'm a sucker for a pair of pretty eyes.

  "What's your name?" I asked. Always like to know who I'm dealing with.

  His smile widened. "Stephen; my name is Stephen." He put out his hand, and I took it. His hand was soft but firm, no manual labor but some weightlifting. Not too much. Enough to firm, not explode. Men my size should not do serious weightlifting. It may look okay in a bathing suit, but in regular clothes you look like a deformed dwarf.

  "Follow me, please." He sounded like a waiter, but when he walked into the crowd, I followed him.

  He led the way towards a huge blue tent. It was like an old-fashioned circus tent. I'd only seen one in pictures or the movies.